Wednesday, May 30, 2012

God: The Great Road Map

One week ago today, my life shifted. I found out Asher was going to be put in the hospital for three day (which turned into 5 days) to start her chemo treatments.
That very same day, I made a decision to choose one of two ways my life could go. Since this blog is a reflection of myself and this exact point in my life, I'm about to get real honest.

I had been contemplating making a decision over a difficult dilemma, but when I found out Asher had cancer, the decision became clear.

I had been praying about what to do about my dilemma for a few weeks. All the signs didn't seem clear until I heard the words Ewing's Sarcoma and chemo treatments.

Life is too short to not be doing what God wants you to do. Period. End of story.

Relationships are hard. Long distance relationships are even harder. While I hate that my decision hurt someone deeply, my love for my family and this little girl runs so much deeper. She is my family. Family is home.

I knew I wanted to help Asher, Justin and Susan, but I had no idea I would take on a role like the one I've taken on. And that just goes to show how great our God is. He has the power to put us in the place we need to be, regardless the "decisions" we make to get there.

I am not perfect. I hate that my life journey hurt someone. But I'm not choosing this path. God is choosing my path. I am just a follower. A follower of Christ. So I am at peace with my decision. I realize other people may not understand it, but they are not on my path. And that's ok. God has a path just for them.

I have no idea where my path will take me, and I love that. So for now, I just move forward.  #letgoandletGod

"It is strength that endures the unendurable and spills over into joy, thanking the Father who makes us strong enough to take part in everything bright and beautiful that he has for us." Colossians 1:11-12 The Message Bible


  1. Beautiful Post! I commend you and look up to you for the decision you made. You see because while I'm a fighter, I tend at time to be chicken of the things that I need to do, and sometimes allow fear to effect my decisions. You on the other hand, you take action, you make things happen, and for that my friend, you are a leader. You make decisions, even when they are difficult because they are for the best. Yep, your pretty gosh darn amazing.

  2. Love it! This is soooo true!

  3. Knowing it's the right thing (especially if ti's a hard thing) is the best. Happy thoughts and prayers still being sent your way.

  4. You are exactly right. The Lord makes our path not us. Sometimes it takes us a while to figure out, but when that lightbulb turns on it lights the path for us. I commend you for being young and wise. As you said life is too short not to take the right road for you. I know that Susan and Justin are glad and feel blessed you are on this journey with them.