Y'all. I'm really stressed out. And there is not much I can do to elevate said stress. I just have to deal.
In a desperate attempt to work out some of my stress and frustrations, I took to the yoga studio for deep breathing and balancing activities.
Since this blog is a representation of myself, sort of a snapshot in time of where I am, I'm going to vent a little bit. And NOT ramble. I just feel like some things need to be said sometimes that we women would usually not say. So here it goes....
It sucks being a girl sometimes. And I usually am proud of my girly ways. But we ladies have a tendency to try to do everything for everyone. And we like to please everyone...therefore making it difficult to please ourselves.
I like everyone to be happy. I like harmony. I like peace. But sometimes all those things I like have hiccups and make me feel insane.
Case in point: I go to school. I do homework. I write. I cook. I clean. I wash clothes. I work. I run. I go to yoga. I'm a friend. I'm a roommate. I'm a girlfriend. I'm a daughter.
I am or do all of those things on a daily basis. And I've been feeling like I'm having a hard time balancing.
It's like I'm walking the tightrope every single day. Just a slip and I will come crashing down.
Now I realize I said I am or do all those things, but being a girl (or I should say being me) I want to do all of those things and be excellent at them. It's my innate ability to want to please people. I can't help it. I'm blue.
The point of this whole post is that I'm only one person. And I write this not to convince you of that fact, but to convince myself. I'm slapping myself in the face, if you will.
I can do it all to some extent, but then something has to give. And I'm not going to give up any of those things I am or do. I guess I just needed to share with you how hard I am on myself.
My name is Ashten....And I'm a perfectionist, people-pleaser and try-to-do-everything-all-the-time-person by nature. It's nice to meet you.